How much can i whine,really. How much i complained and whine and groan and shout and whatever shit, also cant change the fact that it's unfair. Unfair unfair unfair! =( Sigh. Seriously sometimes just dont like the way things go. Not only that, there are other matters that contribute to this unfair shit thinggy. Or just blame on me having all the sway things or just some things that never belong to me even right from the beginning. What to do? Live with it, yea?

Many things are simply out of our control. Maybe if we try to think it openly, maybe we can get the self-consolation answer beneath it. Sometimes just need a shoulder to lean on; it helps though.

-It's all about believing in your belief. Believe in what u think u can. U can do it, cause U can.- a moment of 'oh shit' feeling. totally, period. it's never been easy to accept flaws of the other party TOTALLY. Just a little patience and a little more trust. Nobody cares about what had happened before nor what was supposed to happen nor sth which didnt happen or whatsoever, it just matters about the future. Maybe i should just get that in my mind.

How complicated it can be. 'Wah.' Sometimes a little spark or a little happening is nice enough to make your life interesting for a moment. Just for that period of moment, maybe. :) wrong at the most undesirable moment; I'm sorry. FINALLY 1 project is down. And im left with 5 projects to be supposedly completed by this month. After next week, 1 more down then left with the 3 CORE ones + 1 stupid sales call. Training on Wednesday was tough. Maybe cause im aching from all the weird sets that done with Denise. Butt ached, thighs ached, thanks to Denise. For all parts, it's butt. Sit down also ached. !@#$%^


Sometimes things just dont go your way; even angels could have the possiblity to be banished to hell. Relief is the word for me now?
I hope it is so. This might be just the end of just one project which is only 15%. Ahh, cant imagine how much more we have to go through when doing the integrated project which is due on 31th July!! Somebodyy screammmmmmmed!!!! Maybe this time, i will see them even more often. Maybe near to 24 hours?!

This entire week is a total HELL for me. Miss alot of training. All the focus is on projects, projects and more projects. In fact, it's only catered to just one project. Stayed in school for more than 12 hours. See my group mates more than anyone else. This is SOO much worse than training days. At least i got to get out of the damn sch by 9+, but this time ard, stayed in sch till near 10! Have been cracking brain juices and more brain juices and to the extent of wanting to pull hair circumstances. Totally stress!!


Thanks to Beer ( the topic that we are doing now ) that I wanna kill myself. !@#$% Next time don drink beer! Argh.
Freaking hell FINAL logo.





TO HELL WITH BEEERR! taking a break at the moment;
Finally being productive for the past few hours.

Still, i think so screwed. Seriously need some sleep now. Been tackling with MCOM project for the past few days. Stucked in the library for hours and hours, but ended up laughing at classmates over the most ridiculous things, emo-ing over songs and movies, getting excuses to take a break. Oh shit, i think we are really so screwed. This shouldnt be the way. AHH!

Project to be due:
Fri: E-marketing presentation, MCOM project, interview with sales manager. ( and i haven come out with the qns to ask!! )
16july: submission of SM individual proj
20july: E marketing
27july: Solution selling call
31 july: MAJOR DOOM DAY! -cries-
3aug: Cocktail party

Despite the tiring days, I always had my fill of laughters for each passing day. Got some/many crazy classmates + idiotic group mates whom i see them for more than 8 hours a day, super funny juniors whenever i go training. Yday ( 3 july ), we got some bonding session with the juniors. And they are really a fun-loving juniors. Hmm, cause we are such too? HAha. Anyway, i need to get back to my project. Shucks, early in the morning at 8am. Totally, seriously, I have never come to sch that early except for IS lesson. !@#$%^

Happy 10th! =))