Saturday, January 27, 2007
How realistic the F world can be.
1:36 AM
Whatever had happened is totally a F*k up one. Guess only few of them understand, right? What the world is now is so DAMN realistic. -Omgg im so scared please- Disappointments and saddness do not fit into the picture. Furious, anger is what i get. When things aint stated as clear as you thought it would be and as a result, you got something so shit. The reason of being an unknown, the reason of PRETENDING nth had happened and not being direct. For goodness's sake, please please have more common sense!
Dont pretend to be smart when u aint one,
Dont pretend to be innocent when you habour ill intention,
Dont be nice when your actions and words reveal part of u that you are not,
Dont be act as if nth has happened, when you have done sth awful,
Dont act, because your acting really sucks,
Don try to hide when things are made it so obvious,
Dont pretend that you are best when u are just a piece of shit, SERIOUSLY u are one.
Dont pretend that you aint a idiot when u are one,
Dont wear a mask when you meant to reveal it.
So many shits happened since the beginning of this sem. A bad start; a bad ending. Unless, i manage to make a twist in everything. Im hoping for the ending of this sem and so i can start afresh the next one. And hopefully and pray hard that im not that sway again to stick to this sem's 'fate'. Trust isnt there for anyone. What's up with everyone..How much more real can the society be? I have seen some of the worst scenarios and experienced it myself, oh my gods, the feeling sucks. You can never judge a book by its cover. What may seems nice, might not be something nice. What may seems edible might turn out to be rotton and shitty. So, you never know unless you experienced it urself. And congrats me for having to face such a
'WONDERFUL' experience. Indeed a
'FRUITFUL' one!
who cares if you stand out among the rest? So what you are the outspoken one? At least tell me the reason whyy. That means me seem like some shit. In another word, u are the worst shit who make the others feel more miserable. -ARghh, eh i don noe what am i saying either-
Sorry, just some comments here. Whoever not happy about this, just confront me. And if you dont feel like confronting and yet you feel unhappy, seriously, I dont give a damn.
Friday, January 26, 2007
12:47 AM
Stress is once again falling upon me. I have no choice but to welcome it unwillingly. When the pressure of how well others did and how badly myself had done, that's when stress piled in. -eat shit and die can..- ARghh, nobody likes studying. I dislike projects, i dislike this kind of competition. Thanks goodness that i still have all my beloved ones to fall back on. They are my pillars of support when I need them most. A moment of cranky-ness is needed to relieve stress. =) today captain's ball game by Sheena, I played my heart out. Just to destress before having to start mugging again. It's a great exercise and great workout. hmm, i think better than playing polo? Hahaha. =x Talking about IS, today is my last lesson of my I&E. The presentation is really stupid. It's more like entertaining ourselves though. So great that it finally finished, yet so sad that cant work together with them anymore. I missed those times!
Anyway, after tues's trg, went down to meet 4e5 gathering. Arh, i missed out my treat! Just grab a bun and a pretzel and i went to meet them. Wah, so many people. It's a good thing that i rushed down =D . I haven't see some of them for a long time; somehow i think they seem different. Well, I dont know how to put in words. But just feel that they seem a little different. Guess what? I talked to ShanLong. =x someone whom same class as me for 2 years, yet i think we have talked LESS than 10 sentences to each other. HAHA, due to some stupid reason which i cant rmb either, we didnt talk till now. Come to think of it, secondary school life was so childish and so funny. It's a place full of memories and a place where real friendship lie and where love blossom? Hehehe, ehh let's hope.. =Xx Anyway, i really missed the times in 4e5 class.. All the rubbish things happened and how our class became a legend of in YTSS. =D
And talking about this, I misss someone SOOO dearly! Can Selene Ong ShiLin please meeet up with Serene Lim Li Jiun?? -slapss- after exams I muxxx meet u. If u happen to see this, please arrange one day freeeeee for Serene!
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
A break is what i need
12:56 AM
Once again in the indulgence of ice cream. Yeah, this time is quite a big tub. Thought of using the sweetness to relieve whatever shit i have inside me.
What i want is some encouragments.
I dont need reverse psychological stuffs,
no, this time wont works
Pardon me for the foul mood
Did some 'losers' things
Well, led astray by some dumb galz =x
Having to sit outside Coffee Club at 10++ pm and drink.
After one bottle of after another, till we were abit high
Ok, not quite
just me i guess
Ok, said alot of rubbish things
Seriously, i need a break.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Welcome 2007`
1:40 AM
It's a countdown for the new year and a birthday celebration for Jappo! Being the youngest and the naughtiest monster, she got the most extreme surprise of the year- Going onto the Reverse Bungee Jump at Clarke Quay. So fun can. Yeah, Alexis and me + the birthday girl, went on the ride. I admit i was scared in the beginning. I seriously scared of height. But when the 'ball' throws u up in the air, the feeling is just so shiok, so fun! The tossing up feel so like all your fears are being thrown away high up in the sky. The feeling of having to be so high up in the sky is so nice, having to look at the buildings across the rivers, the beautiful lightings, and all the people that are partying and waiting for the new year to arrive. It's only when the ride came to a stop and left us hanging up there in the air, den i realise it wasnt that scary after all. Fun and the thrilling experience is all i get. =))
After which, we went drinking. Well, i guess i went a little high over one glass of champagne and a little bit of beer. I know what i was doing, just that rubbish came out of my mouth. Nothing seems to sound right. HahAHa. Well at least that added on to the fun yea? Thanks to the monsters and Bing for being there to accompany me to pass the 1st day of the year 2007. The night may still seems young, but i guess everyone was tired, and went home early. Everywhere still very crowded during 3-4am. Many malays and many drunkens were stranded at the streets, not wanting to go home. tsktsk,..
Ending off this entry with a MUACK to everyone =))