Friday, February 25, 2005
feeLin ^, ^ bUt............
5:23 PM
heHe.. [[ stArtin wIf a smIle.. *winK*.. ^,^ ]] yeaH... feEl mUch ligthEr... bUrdeN lEssEn?? maYb... heaRt dOesnt feeL at alL sOo tighteN aNd prEssUrIseD.... =D ^hOpe tT a gd tInk^ haIz..... bUt......... wOrsT tInk Tt tHe stuPid MOE reLeasE tHe resuLt at a wrOnG daY` haIz... maKe me kInda lOse moOd on my sPeciaL daY` sPoil my dAy fOr bIrd dAy... If geT Gd resUlt den wOo..~ heNgz.. bUt If..... ^^ cHOY!!! tOucH wOod^^ aHhHh... aIyoOo.. nO maTter hOw.. stilL sCAred aNd feeL sOoo feD uP bY tHe resUlt... i telL wei chIng... since It On mY bIrd daY`... deN iF i caN maNage tO get 15 pOints fOr my O's... i wilL trEat theM eaT eaT... cOz Tt tHe pOint i aIm FOr... 15 leH!!! hOw caN..... bUt i praY haRd aNd i wIshed i caN... ^^ OhhH plZ gOd.. let me geT tt pOintS... ^^ hahahaAHa... sOund dUmb ba... lOlz~` aiYooOo.. gO baCK scH... weAr scH U agaIn.. aNd tHe laSt tIme =( haHA.. sOo excIted aBt weaRin sCh U bacK agAIn leH``... mIz tHe UnifOrm wOr,.. haHAa... siaO ba`... ~ k... tT fOr tOdaY... now 1.23am... soOo cOol timIn... 123`.. haHAah.... craP finIsh... ` nItz.......... agaIn ^, ^ =- smiLe owaYy...!!!-=
Saturday, February 19, 2005
```^ - waT a daY.... -^```
5:51 PM
todaY Is sImplY a dUmb dUmb daY.. aH!! forgEt it.. dOn waNna tOk abt It tOo le.. wOo.. tOdAY i dO 2 tInk earLy in tHe mOrnIn.. i gO maKe a POSB card.. yeaH..fInally One caRd Of my Own..` aNd dEn gO bUy hp.. Yes!!! fInalLy neW hP leH.. bUt aiya.. wheN i come bacK frM wOrk aNd test tHe hP.. fInd Out tt mOst Of my msG aRe gOne!!! ='( ^sO saD^ i waNna mY cUte cuTe aNd memOrabLe de mSg... ='''(( pLz let me haV tHem baCK... i nOe it caNt.. i aM jUz whInin.... aHh... mayB i waS jUz feD uP bY jUz the wOrk.. HATE tHe feelIn Of beIn accUsEd.. iF u werE me... u aRe accUsed Of tinK tT u nV dOne wHen u aLReadY tRy Ur besT tO dO tHe best lIao..>>??? tIs IS simply dUMB DUMB DUMB!!!! aH.. nOw daMn sad... cOz new hP = mY cUte cUte de msG gOne!!! ='''(( mayB i wilL seNd tHosE msG tt i waN tO tHe neW hP ba... waH.. tT aLot lOrz... 100++ msG wOr... i gOnnA brOke liAo..iF tt waS tO b cOntInUe.... haIz... .*sIgh*....
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
3:54 PM
todAY is vaLentIne.. ya.. wat A daY..--> tT i shLd saY` i gO tO Mt faber tO ceLebraTe mY vaLentine.. haHA.. bUt tT plaCe cOol leh.. sceNerY erM........ OK nIa.. nOt veRy gd.. bUt fOod ... Erm.. nIce!!! kInda Of Ex.. worTh it bA.. bUt hOr.. tHe plaCe aT tHe caBle caR tHere de reSta.. i tiNk mOre hIgh cLaSs.. deN tHe sceneRy tHere mOre wOOo.. bUt abT tHe fOod aNd prIce.. na..i dOn nOe` .. haha.. OnlI gEt tO see THe sceneRy.. maYb It sO nIce dUe tO valentIne daY ba..
na.. tOdaY i osO diD stH fOolisH le.. i rUn alL tHe waY tO a Place tO bUy oNe fOod.. cOz nO cab.. dEn aiyA.. i osO in habOur frOnt.. deN i osO dOn inteNd tO go bacK agAIn.. sO i rUn lOrz.. kaOz.. weAr skIrt aNd rUn.. kInda Of hOrribLe.. bUt aiyA.. tOo bad La..caNnOt laTe.. den fRM theRe tK caB tO mt faBer.. siaO ba wO`.. nvM.. cOz tt wat i aM .. ^,^
Monday, February 14, 2005
` waT a daY...`
1:39 PM
tOt tt tOdaY wilL b a haPpy daY fOr me... ya.. tT waT i tot aT 1sT... it waS tHe thIrd day oF cNy wHen bbaLl gaLz dEcided tO tOn.. yeaH!! tT sOund sOoO greaT.. thIrd daY oF cNy.. *tinkiN tInkIn.. * ahHR.. nvM.. pUsh tT tOt asIde.. i gO back yTss sEe cOnceRt.. peNgz... cOnCert lIk saI.. realLy gO there maKe mE sIan haLf haLf.. nItz tIme bBall gaLz.. sEc 4 gEneratIon de gO eaT steaMbOat... cOol aR.. deN hOr.. heaRd stH daMn hUrtiN... damN daMn saD de... kaOz... nvM... i dIdnt realLy shOw Out tT i waS sAd aLreaDy... mIdnItz wHen tOn aT yaN xIu hS.. we pLAy bLack jaCk tHru the mIdnItz.. shiOk aR.. i eaRn At 1st... deN lOst sOme at tHe eNd ....-_-!! aFt tHey plaY fInisH... mOst Of Them gO sLp wheN it waS 5 In tHe mOrnIn... kaOz.. i waS lOokin at sOme stUFf tT i dIdnt sLp.. dEn aFt readIn.. i lOoked aRd the Hs.. ya` everY1 waS asLp..... haIz.. den i tOt....... i tiNk of wat haPpeN... i tInk Of waT i heaRd......... i tiNk... i tiNk sOoO mUch tT i feeL lIk a idIot-trEatEd... i feEL sO daMn sAd.. tt i gO to One cOnceRn Of The hS aNd cry... i dOn waN tO crY de.. bUt i beIn beaRin It fOr tHe evenIn tilL nOw... i caNt tK it.. i gOt nO1 tO telL to.. aNd the mOre tT i tinK.. tHe mOre dePresSed i feEL... kaOz... i tinK tOo mUch.. i dOn wanna haTe aNy1... i dOn waNna maKe tInk wOrse.. jUz waNnA maKe tInK cleAr... maYb it waS a mIsunderstandIn alL alOng??? HA.. dOubt sO... If i trY tO sOlve tHe ''misUndersTandIn'' i wilL oNLy eNd uP maKe tinK wOrse.... sIan!!! it wilL jUz a mIsunderstanDin fOreva lOrz...whO cARe...!! ovEr osO oveR... BUt feeL sO oO mUch lIk a bIg bai chi leH!!! aRrrrRRRr..... tHe mOre i tinK tHe mOre i feeL aNgrY!!! aNd Is realLY aNgrY!!!....................... aRrRRrrr``
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
hOw exactly shLd i be feeLin??
3:18 PM
*haIz*.. starIn wIf a sIgh..there maNy tInK haPpen receNtly.. bUt i dOn waN tO saY alL oUt.. i will saY brIefly.. erM.. 1stly waT i cAN saY is tT.. i had freNz wIf prOb.. prOb Of lUv... haIz.. i haV a freNz whO has a Bf.. sHe waS verY nIce gaL.. heR bF treAt Her lIk a rOse wHen jiO heR.. bUt treAt heR lIk a maId wHen 2gtHer.. wtF maNz!! kNnccB!!! angrY leH... tIs kInda Of gUy dOn wan osO caN! hmph.. tHere still lOts Of gUys Out tHere fOr uRs... y bOther tO hOld on tO hIm.. is Tt a lUv lIfe tT u desIRed fOr...?? dOn saY dOn nOe.. u mUz nOe.. tT gUy maY saY he lUv.. bUt nOt tO tHe exteNt tt u gIv aNd nv tK... u maY saY tt u usEd tO wat It iS nOw.. Luv Isnt gettIn usEd tO tHe lIfe.. if he keePs oN lettIn u sUffeR..tt nOt calLed lUv.. bf shLdnt let gaLz sUffeR One leH` .. gaLz shLd be pamperEd aNd carEd fOr.. u unDerstaNd???!!
*siGh*.. not OnlI tIs.. tHEre stilL otHer gaL tt sHe has prOb wIf her aIai.. i dOn nOe THe stOry mUch.. bUt i caN seE tT sHe is verY saD.. peNGz.. aiyOo.. dOn saDsaD la.. k??
deN anOther One.. sHe tOt sHe haD meet a neW One aNd tOt tT gUy Is gd enougH tO be heR nxT targEt.. bUt.. haiz.. tinK isNt tHe waY It Is... tHe gUy Is Gd.. nIce.. bUt.. tHe lUv fOr heR ex Is sImply tOoOo strOng fOr heR tO let gO tHe prevIous tHe relatiOnshiP...no maTter hOw sHe wilL cOmpaRe... i keeP tellIn her nOt tO coMpaRe.. bUt hOw can sHe nOt cOmparE wHen heR eX Is a 100% bf` rite??
deN anOTher prOb Is mIne.. ya.. Of cOz i gOt prOb.. jUz tT i nv seEn tO saY It oUt.. wat tHe usE of sayIn It oUt wHen nO1 caN helP me.. it wilL onLi gIv prOb tO ppL nIa.. oNli 2 ppL nOe mY stUff.. bUt oso nOt nOe whole stOry.. maYb onE ba.. *sIgh*.. verY badlY i wIsh tO waLk Out Of tis foreSt.. i fEel lOst.. vEry lOst..eVa sInce Tt day..[[ oNli chIng nOe wat daY is Tt..]] nOein tT i aM lIvin in reaLtiy le.. cant aFfOrd tO be stUbBorn le.. bUt stilL.. sTubbOrn will stilL be One Of my cHarActer.. i wilL cHOose tO lIve In mY faNtasy.. sOmetImes.. hoPin tO sEe a sIght oF mIracLe wilL lIghteN uP my lIfe.. a mIracLe tt oNce aPpeaR In my lIfe b4.. in lIfe.. tHEre maNy surprIsEs... aNd u aRe One of The sUrpriSes tT i eVa meT.. ya~.. u!!
^luv^.. tIs is a wOrd Of prOmIse tO eaCh neW lIfe.. onLi wHere lUv exIst.. aNd i meaN trUe lUv.. tT a couPle wilL get tOgetHer And deN a neW lIfe wilL deN be bOrn.. hOwevA.. acHievIn tIs wOrd need aLot Of scaRifiCe aNd cOmpromIsiN aNd trUst..it nOt seEM as eaSy aS oNe caN imagIne.. i aM mOody.. yeS i aM... don nOe y... realLy tOt tT worKin wilL keeP mysElf prE ocCupy..bUt reaLity prOve mE wrOng.. iT purPosely shOw oUt tHe reaL me..tT wHen my stUbborneSs cOme.. i insISt tT i aM alrIght.. i insIst tt i aM Ok aS lOng aS i tOt it wilL be..beeN fIghtIn bacK my teArs.. as lOng aS i cAn endUre.. i wilL enDure..
fOr tIs Once.. i pOur quite alOt of tInk Out.. cOz tOo maNy trUth smacKed my rIte In tHe faCe wHen i waS preteNdIn tO ignOre aNd cOntiNue mY faNtasY...ydaY Juz nOe One mOre tInk.. tT hIt me reAl haRd.. actualLy i nOe it alL alOng.. bUt i chOose tO sOund It in a haPpier waY.. bUt..it dOEsnt helP.. it oNli maKE tInK wOrse...` wat cAn i dO tOo... ?? hOw exactLY sHld i Be feeLin?? tHe reaL me Of preteNdin tO be haPpy?? Or a owaY laughIn de... i doN nOe.. i wisH tO be lIk tHe last tIme b4 tT daY..........................................................